CHARACTERIZATION

I have decided to try and be more open on here. To write down my thoughts and feelings and share a bit more of myself. I do this cautiously but I think it will be healthy and will feel good to allow a few people in.

Character is an account of the qualities or peculiarities of a person or thing. I have been thinking about the character of certain individuals around me.

A few months ago Mr. Pimptastic entered my life. (Thank you to my hilarious sister for the fitting nickname). Mr. Pimptastic entered my life through email. He is a friend of one of my friends and came in touch with me after getting my email from a mass email my friend had sent out. At first Mr. Pimptastic seemed like the perfect individual. We had much in common and I really looked forward to our conversations. He is serving our country in Iraq and therefore was far from home and we were limited to the computer for our interactions. It didn't take long for my heart to become involved. This scared me, as here was someone I had never met in person. I had never heard his voice and I had only seen a photo of him. How in the world could I allow him into my heart under these circumstances? He made comments that indicated that he felt the same way and so I ignored the nagging in my head and allowed my heart to fall in deeper. This was a big mistake. Our entire friendship was a big mistake. The only positive is that I learned early on that Mr. Pimptastic was not all he made himself out to be. He had a serious girlfriend that he was planning to marry. I asked myself (and also him) if he had a girlfriend what was he doing with me? He had the nerve to suggest that she was dating other people while he was away so I could consider what we were doing as online dating. Wrong answer! I decided to give him the benefit of the doubt and try to just be friends. He agreed and said what he knew I wanted to hear. I quickly learned that he had no intention of just being friends. Now that his charade was over he didn't need me anymore. Since that last conversation I have visited his website and have discovered that he has moved on to someone else. It shows exactly what kind of character Mr. Pimptastic is.

Unfortunately Mr. Pimptastic isn't the only person in my life that has hurt me and used my tender heart. I am not trying to write a man bashing blog here, but I must admit that it is getting harder and harder not to develop the "Men are Pigs" attitude that my co-worker has.

How do we know when our heart is safe? How do we know that someone is trustworthy? And how do I allow myself to trust others again when people like Mr. Pimptastic are out there? I am starting to question my own judgment ...

Posted on 27 December 2007 by Ali ||

What's Your Personality Type?

Ali on a more personal level ...

You are talkative and adventurous. The world is your canvas, a place to be creative and explore. The small things in life bring the biggest smiles to your face. You are enthusiastic about life and love learning new things.

Your strengths include photography, seeing the world through another's eyes, the ability to forgive others and being creative.

Your weaknesses include being overly emotional, obsessing about your weight, having a hard time trusting others and yourself, and talking too much and too fast!

You over analyze EVERYTHING. You think too much and worry too much about things you can not control. Sometimes thinking can be a good things but sometimes it can lead you into trouble.

If you could describe yourself in one word, it would be tenderhearted.

You delight in spending time with your six nieces and nephew and find the greatest joy in listening to them tell stories and hearing them laugh.

You have an obsession with french fries … especially covered with cheese. (the best ones can be found at Dee's and should be smothered in pepper and fry sauce)

At work you are through with your job and very organized unless you become overwhelmed. Then you freak out and start making lots of mistakes. Sometimes you find it hard to focus and would much rather talk with your co-workers, which your boss finds displeasing.

You find love to be eluding. It seems to run from you. When in love you give your heart completely.

Your family is an important part of your life and has helped guide you and make you the person that you are. It is a small group of people that are mostly not blood related to you, but they are the most important people in your life.

You believe that Thursday nights were meant for curling up in front of the television and watching "The Office."

You wish you felt more in control of your life, that you could be as organized at home as you are at work, that the world could find a way to live in peace, that your friends could fulfill the dreams that they each have. You wish for education and love.

You dream of finding true love and having a family and home of your own. You want to travel the world with your camera in tow discovering all that there is waiting to be discovered.