My name is Ali and this is my web-a-holic. Welcome! Visualize is my place to compile my thoughts, feelings, pictures (lots and lots of pictures) and share them with whomever decides to come across here. This site is very random as am I. If you have any thoughts or ideas feel free to leave them in the comments.
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THE SITE ...: ARCHIVES ...: JANUARY/FEBRUARY 2005
TOO FREAKIN' CUTE
28 February 2005 ...

One of the highlights of this weekend was getting to see Elinor, Bethany, & Clark. These three kids are such a joy in my life and each one is so unique. Clark is "all boy" and loves bugs and animals of all kinds. Bethany is our "princess" and loves make up and playing dress up. Elinor is the "mischievous one" and is very independent and has a great sense of humor! One of the joys of life is the differences of each individual personality. It is learning to love the unique parts of yourself.

Pictures from the funeral and the birthday party have been added to the gallery.

LIFE IS PRECIOUS
22 February 2005 ...

Life is so short, and I was reminded of that this weekend. I have been thinking about how we take for granted each precious moment that is given to us here on this earth. If we were to die tomorrow would we have done all the things that we would have wanted to, said the things we wanted to say, and been the people we wanted to be?

SITE UPDATES
22 February 2005 ...

Reorganized the gallery ... I had everything alphabetical and now it is done chronologically so things are a little easier to find.

I added new pics from bowling on Saturday night and family home evening last night.

BREAKING AWAY
15 February 2005 ...

I hope everyone loves our new layout!

Surprisingly, I am out of words today, and so who better to fill that void than the amazing C.S. Lewis: "Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival."

CUPID PASSOVER
14 February 2005 ...

HAPPY CUPID's PASSOVER! (aka Valentine's Day, Single Awareness Day, and anything else you want to call it) I hope that everyone is having an amazing day! And because I feel that Valentine's Day is a day to celebrate all forms of love, I want to let all of my friends know how much I love them and am grateful for all that they do. It's the little things that matter the most. The emails, the smiles, the words of encouragement, etc. It means a lot!

Enjoy this funny story by Dave Barry.

Love you!
-Ali

P.S. New pics can be found here and here.
P.S.S. New layout & full site will be up tomorrow!

THIS IS ME
10 February 2005 ...

There is one main question I think every person who lives on this earth asks themselves at least once in their lives, ";Who Am I?"; This is something that I have been working on figuring out for quite a while now and yesterday a few people gave me some insight to who I am and I thought it important to share part of that with you.

I think there are a lot of people who believe that I am a reactionary person and in some ways I can see why, but I have learned there is more to me than that. I don't just get upset or emotional just for the heck of it. That there is reasoning to it and how it all plays out. When I react it is usually after a chain of events causing me to feel like I am not respected or that my feelings are being played with.

You might ask how you can help so that I am not quite so reactionary. I am a person who likes to know what is going on, it's the unknown that I have a hard time dealing with. This is why honesty and good open communication is so important to me. Let me know how you truly feel. Be honest with me (without attacking me), even when you think I will be upset. If you tell me that you are going to do something, please follow through, and if you can't I will understand if you call and let me know. All I want is to feel appreciated, loved, included and to not feel taken for granted.

WINK! WINK!
8 February 2005 ...

Last night I attended our Family Home Evening. The lesson was on marriage which is one of those topics that usually brings groans to all who hear it. Sunday night we had a fireside which topic was "Faith & Families" and discussed a similar topic. I think there is something they are trying to tell us! Because of these lessons and talks, my friend and I were discussing it last night as we ended the evening. And a few things that we discussed have been on my mind ever since.

The main one being - what do you want out of marriage? relationships? Here is what I have come up with. I want honesty and trust. These are two very important things in my life. I want compromise on both parts. I want laughter and love. I want common goals. In college I had an assignment where I had to interview someone who's marriage I admired and find out the things they felt made thier marriage what it was and this is what she told me. That first off you had to have the same BIG goals. There are things in life that each person wants, and it is okay to want some things that are different from your spouse, but that the big things like temple marriage, the gospel, children, etc. Second, you have to be able to laugh during the good times, because if you can't then you will never survive the bad times. Third, you want it to be your best friend that you share eternity with. That person that you can be yourself with and enjoy life with. There is a couple that I know that I had the chance to watch some this weekend and doing so I learned a lot. I learned that even though marriage can be hard work that it should also be fun. You should be able to laugh and joke around. I made a comment about the husband in this twosome and how he made me laugh. The wife responded, "Me too. That's why I married him."

Second, I thought about how all of this applies to our other kinds of relationships. This weekend I had a few bad experiences and one of them taught me something very important. It taught me that respect is a major part of relationships and without it there is a very limited foundation. Because respect and trust go hand in hand. I decided that I don't want relationships that don't have respect in them. Respect for me and my feelings. Because it is hard to respect someone who doesn't respect you.

I took some pictures of our game of wink last night. It was so much fun! I don't think the shirts of the guys that were sitting in front of me will ever be the same!

HAVE YOU EVER?
4 February 2005 ...
  1. Been kissed: Yes.
  2. Eaten sushi: No ... not really a seafood person.
  3. Gotten hyper: Heck yeah!
  4. Been dumped: Not officially dumped, but I have had my heart broken.
  5. Eaten an entire pizza by yourself: Almost, but not quite.
  6. Been a rebel: Not really ... I am not a very rebellious person.
  7. Been drunk: No ... but I have seen many people drunk and passed out in their own vomit. (isn't that a pleasant visual)
  8. Gotten in a car accident: yes unfortunately ... 2 of them and they were both when I was sixteen.
  9. Ever liked someone older: Yep
  10. Seen the white house: Yes
  11. Hiked a mountain: Kinda ... not a full blown mountain and even that might not be considered hiking more like tripping up it.
  12. Stayed home on a Saturday/Friday night just for the fun of it: Yes, because sometimes those nights are needed, but I would much rather spend them with my friends.
  13. Thrown up or passed out on an amusement park ride: Nope
  14. Made home made cookies (from scratch):  That is the best way ... might have to do that this afternoon.
  15. Made out in a Love Sac (or something of the like): Nope ... just cuddled, but that was very nice.
  16. Gone skinny dipping: No, but have always wanted to.
  17. Traveled to Europe: Yes ... I lived there for three years and had the chance to travel all over from Germany, England, Netherlands, Austria, Italy, France, Switzerland, Denmark, Lichtenstein, etc.
  18. Gone bungee jumping or skydiving: Been bungee jumping once, but I doubt you would ever get me to jump out of a plane! (unless it was going to crash)
  19. Done a spontaneous road trip: Yes ... down to Ephraim for a week for some much needed time to myself.
  20. Been puddle jumping: Oh yes! One of the funnest things to do when I was at Snow College and on my mission.
FUN & FABULOUS FRIENDS
3 February 2005 ...

I have the best friends! They are so fun and really make my life a lot more interesting. And in honor of them and their fabulousness (is that even a word?) I have redone the friend page.

WORRIES, QUESTIONS, & INSECURITIES
1 February 2005 ...

I am a worry wort. It's part of my personality that at times drives me nuts. I guess it is part of my insecurities coming through. My most recent one is my photography. I have been taking pictures with my new camera and they aren't turning out as well as I think they should. So it is causing me to second guess my abilities. Maybe I should reconsider majoring in photography. Maybe I should just be a member of the paparazzi and follow people around taking bad pictures of them.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR ... along with a big volleyball
31 January 2005 ...

I decided that since it's almost Valentine's Day that it was time to do a new layout ... this year it features Gilmore Girls' couple Lorelai Gilmore & Luke Danes.

This past weekend was full of fun activities with my friends ... friday night found us at the institute playing volleyball and basketball and Saturday brought us to the movies to see "Phantom of the Opera".

And for those of you who didn't see me this past weekend, I dyed my hair to a dark brown with red highlights. Something new for me ... still getting used to it.

100 THINGS YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW ABOUT ME - VOLUME FIVE
27 January 2005 ...

It has been a while since I have done this and I thouhgt it would be fun to add a few more to the list. Here you go:

  1. I have a life list full of goals to accomplish before I die.
  2. I have been known to create words to fit my needs.
  3. I have never had a boyfriend.
  4. Peach flavored Jolly Ranchers are my favorite.
  5. I have loved three men in my life.
  6. I have a strange fascination with board games ... especially Scattegories, Apples to Apples & now the Trivial Pursuit 90s Edition. (Unfortunately I don't get to play games very often being an only child.)
  7. I am ticklish in three spots and so far no one has ever found all three.
  8. I love to sing. Especially in the shower and when I am driving alone in my car.
  9. I have a fear of being by myself.
  10. My first kiss was with a good friend and came as quite the surprise.
TREATING OTHERS WITH RESPECT
24 January 2005 ...

Last night as I sat with two of my girlfriends we discussed how we treat others and how they treat us. The one thng that really stuck in my mind was that how we let certain people treat us one way when we would never let others do it. I have a few people in my life that aren't always the nicest to me and I let them treat me that way even though I would never let anyone else do it. This is not their fault ... yes they could be nicer, but I am the guilty party because I allow them to get away with it even though I know that I deserve better. The question I am asking myself now is "How do I change it?"

THE SMALL THINGS
21 January 2005 ...

The small things in life are what make it so great! From clickable sharpies to diet coke with lime to a new cd to orange post-it notes to a candy bar to laughing with friends to puddle jumping in the rain to a walk with a friend.

MAKING CHANGES
19 January 2005 ...

I am in real need of some change in my life and the first place is going to be here. Any suggestions? Leave me a comment and tell me what you think I should do with the site? Anything you'd like to see added? Thing I should get rid of, etc...?

LIFE AS THE PAPARAZZI
18 January 2005 ...

Anyone who knows me (even just a little bit) knows that I love my camera. I love taking pictures and I love sharing those pics with everyone (heck - if you didn't know this go check out the gallery!) Well as I previously mentioned I received a new camera for Christmas. Well this past weekend I bought a new compact flash card that has 512 MB of storage space and I decided to test it out. Let's just say I went CRAZY! I did a photoshoot with Katie on Saturday at the Draper Park, took pictures at lunch on Monday, and did a ton of shots at Family Home Evening. I know that I am probably driving all of my friends crazy taking all of the pictures, but through their pain I hope you find even just a little bit of enjoyment!

P.S. I also took some pictures on Friday night when we went bowling at Sandy Lanes. These aren't the best, but hey - you can still tell who everyone is - even if I did cut some heads off. And they call my a photographer!

UNTIL IT'S GONE
14 January 2005 ...

I have had something on my mind these past few days. Last week I was cleaning out my desk and I found some letters that were written to me by friends from high school and from college. A couple of them said similar things such as that they realized just how much my friendship with them meant to them. These are words we all like to hear and they mean a lot. The thing that got to me though was that all of these were written after we were no longer together. So here is what I have been thinking about: Why do we take for granted the things that are right in front of us?

That is my new goal. To better appreciate the people and things that are apart of my life right now, at this moment. And to start out I want to say thank you to all of my friends. I am grateful that you are apart of my life. I am grateful for the crazy nights watching movies & playing games. I am grateful for the flowers found on doorsteps. I am grateful for opportunities to share Mt. Dew & Lumberjacks and listen to Counting Crows (but not after 8:30 pm). I am grateful for Phelpsie & Kocho and other crazy Animals. I am grateful for lunchtime runs to Siegfrieds to share conversation and spaetzle. I am grateful for seats saved at church and listening to testimonies shared. I am grateful for text (even if it does say you are engaged) and voicemail messages (yes I do have a photogenic behind). I am grateful for sugar shots and pineapples. I am grateful for practical jokes, even when they are at my expense (keep your lips & cologne to yourself). I am grateful for sharing pictures and cameras. I am grateful for emails and blogging. I am grateful for runs to Dee's at all hours of the night (love those Cheese Fries & Bacon). Most of all I am grateful that I get to share this existance with each of you.

4 BC OR 1 BC?
12 January 2005 ...

I started my institute class night. It is called Christian History and covers the various Christian religions from the life on Christ until present day. It is going to be interesting to learn about various other beliefs and the events in history. I can't wait to learn more.

LOOKING BACK WITH NO REGRETS
10 January 2005 ...

What a weekend! First off Friday proved to be one extremely hilarious and long day. We all got together at Brenda's house for a winter barbecue and ended up watching Homestarrunner.com's Strong Bad Emails. (if you haven't seen this I recommend going to the link under Right Now) We ended up hanging out until well after midnight. For pics go here.

I had the chance to catch up with an old friend from high school this week. It brought back many memories from the past and sent me on a scavenger hunt looking at my old scrapbooks and my high school video year book. My first thought while doing this was, "Did I really attend high school?" Next I realized just how much has happened in the past ten years and how many things have changed. I realized just how differently my life has turned out then I thought it would and how much I have learned in that time. I used to think I hated how things were and how they've turned out, but one thing I have learned is that everything happens for a reason and that everything happens in Heavenly Father's own due time. And because of these lessons I wouldn't change a thing.

A FLIPPIN' SWEET TEST
06 January 2005 ...

Ok - this was way too funny to pass up and knowing my friends I think that you will all get a kick out of this!

Deb

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?

Once you take the quiz, post your results in the comments section!

ANNIE LOU
04 January 2005 ...

Every child has pets, and I was no exception. But the one thing is while I wanted dogs, my mom liked cats. Don't get me wrong, I really like cats, especially as kittens. But as a child the fun wore off when they grew out of the kitten stage, they were too independent and didn't want to play with me any more ... I could never understand why they didn't want to be dressed up in doll clothes and rocked in my baby craddle.

The one cat that I was the closest to was Bailey. I even got to name her (after my favorite cartoon in the Sunday paper, Beetle Bailey) and she was beautiful - a slick black with a white patch on her neck. But back in June, Bailey passed away at 18 years old. This was sad, and so my mom thought we should get a new kitten. Yeah I had done this before, when my dog Riley had passed away we bought me a beautiful dog named Ollie, but Ollie is not my dog, he is my mother's. And this was hard, and I wasn't sure I was ready for another pet. But after some persuasion my mom talked me into going and looking at these kittens that a lady at her work had found outside her house that needed a home. Enter Annie ....

annie lou

One of the agreements I made with my mom in getting a new cat was that I got to name her. I choose to name her Annie Lou after my favorite photographer, Annie Lou Leibovitz. My mom wasn't too keen on the name and so she calls her Annabell (but just so you know her name is Annie not Annabell). I have never had a more loving cat before. Okay, she is loving to me. She barely will go to my mom, but she sleeps on my bed every night, curls up with me while I am watching television, wants to sit on my lap while I am on the computer, etc. She does the craziest things ... and sometimes she thinks she is the dog. She is my baby and I love her.

P.S. Pics from last night's paint fight (I mean FHE) are up!

MOVING ON
03 January 2005 ...

Yesterday I came to a realization. I have always been one who believes that every person that is in your life is there for a reason. Sometimes for long periods of times and some for very short ones. Usually though when these people leave my life it is due to moves, deaths, marriages, and breaking of ties, etc. I never realized until yesterday that these people that are in your life while still being there. That not make sense, but let me try and explain.

Usually if you break ties the friendship ends even if you see them regularly, but for the first time I am still friends with a few people, and I still see them regularly but we just don't talk like we did, we don't spend time together like in the past. The important part of my life that they once were isn't what it once was, and I am not sure it will ever be. I am not blind enough to say that nothing happened to cause our friendship to get that way, but it still makes me sad in a way. Because knowing what you had makes knowing what you lost that much more difficult.

I have added two new categories of pictures. One from New Years Eve - went to First Night with some friends. The other is called Pranks: The Butt of the Joke. Kate & I like playing pranks ... just harmless fun. This time it was long over due pay back for my friend Matt. We took a bunch of pictures of people's butts and posted them on a poster board and put, "Hey Matt, how does it feel to be the butt of the joke?" Signed "The perrenial butt of your jokes." We then duct taped it to his front door.